In My Mind

"They say if you love something youve got to let it go
And if it comes back then it means so much more
But if it doesnt, at least you will know
That it was something you had to go through to grow"

-Heather Headley, In My Mind


So I was feeling some kind of way this morning, and that was only compounded by my frustration, not being able to find the words to say what I wanted to say about it. I had a point that I only half got to, so rather than sit around frustrated thinking about it, I decided to get up and turn that frustration into positive energy.

I got up and took a shower, washed my hair, and cleaned up - a little LOL. There's a ton of other stuff I still have to do around here, but I feel a small sense of accomplishment having at least started. Now I am sitting here listening to channel 843 on my Direct Tv, which is that REAL R&B, and some of the songs that have been playing have been helpful in sorting it all out. The one I quoted above made me feel better about the situation I last spoke about. Some other ones hit home too, and here are some of the things I picked up:

-Whatever I did in the situation I last spoke about I did because I felt it was best for me, and I should never apologize for making a decision based on that, even when the long-term outcome is less than desirable.

-Everything does happen for a reason, even when we never fully understand what that reason is.

-Reflection is free but redemption is expensive, and often not worth the price.

-The first person we should all learn to forgive is ourselves. Hey, you cant free someone from inside the same cage.

-Love sometimes means letting someone be happy somewhere else.

-If I have to choose between loving a man and loving a woman, I'll love a woman every time - ME.