Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Sooooooo.....

I turned in my last assignments and finished my last paper. All there is left to do is pass my comprehensive exam the first week of August and I will possess a Masters in Psychology with a concentration in Criminology and Justice Studies. Wow. And to think I did it all on a whim, just because at the time I had nothing better to do. I should have gotten up this morning feeling like I was on top of the world and nothing could stop me but unfortunately, I was completely exhausted. I will attempt this tomorrow though. I will make an attempt to pretend like I have the energy to conquer the world because I should have such energy. One day soon I will actually have the energy. Tonight I am happy that there are no more assignments, no more rushing home on Monday and Thursday nights and no more stressing about whether I had done enough. Next weekend I will return to my adolescence, joining hands and hearts with those I came into adulthood with, celebrating my 20th high school reunion. Damn. 20 years. How quickly the time passes.

My kids' father got out of prison yesterday after four and a half long years. I wish I was here to witness the smiles and laughter that ensued when he rang the bell but its enough to know that it occurred and my children's hopes were renewed. I can only hope that he will make good on his promises to make up for the time lost. I pray for direction for him and success in his new goals and for mine....


Saturday, July 13, 2013

Sigh....

Unless you've been under a rock somewhere, you've heard by now that George Zimmerman was found not guilty tonight of the murder/manslaughter/life-taking/whatever of Trayvon Martin. I can't say I am surprised. I mean... we're talking about Florida - the state that quite notoriously has helped steal elections and also acquitted Casey Anthony of the murder of her own daughter. But it isn't even about Florida. Its about America. Land of the free and home of the brave does not apply to all of us and its a sad day when the criminal justice system in any state sends the message that the lives of young black people are worth less than dogs. Remember Michael Vick? Yeah. He did what, 3 years for not himself killing dogs but being an enabler of dog killing? But a man who was told by authorities not to follow someone took it upon himself to not only follow that person but to engage and take his life is free tonight. No, I am not surprised, but it doesn't make me any less disgusted.

My son is 15 years old and he could very well find himself in that same situation on any given day so my heart bled for those parents. But I don't think you even have to be a parent to see what was wrong with this picture. Im not gonna write a new book of the bible, ranting about my disappointment. What I am going to do is ask that you not show your anger through rioting. It wont bring Trayvon back, it wont put Zimmerman in jail, however, it may land YOU there. Rioting is nothing more than an unproductive temper tantrum that does nothing but make us look like we are worthy of the shitty treatment we're given. I'm also going to ask that you continue to pray for the family of Trayvon Martin and while you're at it, pray for the family of George Zimmerman too because I'd be really surprised if he's not dead within 60 days....

P.S. I think I wanna be a lawyer again.

Hey, You!

I know. I suck. But hey, I've been busy.

Between the random dates and school and trying to kick this smoking thing and every damn thing else I've been up to lately, there's really been no shortage of shit to write about but I just haven't had the energy to do it.

I can tell you that none of my recent suitors made the cut, although one was really close until he reverted back into a 12-year old boy when I wouldn't sleep with him. I mean really. I TOLD him when he invited me over that I wasn't going to and he SAID he was alright with that, so color me confused when it turned out he wasn't LOL. And he couldn't just throw a hissy fit right there on the spot like a normal loser, he kept pretending he was okay all through the next day's conversations, short and dry though they were, and didn't decide to not talk to me again until the day after THAT. Nigga SO??? LOL These dudes funny.

I can also tell you Im coming up on my last week of class. After that, I just have to pass my comprehensive exam and your girl will be an official Master of Psychology with a concentration in Criminology and Justice Studies. Yes, ma'am. Planning to stay at my job through the end of the year though - God willing - and then change lanes into something I can use it in. I need a new advisor though; he keeps trying to turn me into a corrections officer. #ifyoudontgetthefuck.....

NO.

I don't wanna be nowhere near nobody's sharpened toothbrushes and toilet bowl moonshine, thank you very much.

It also turns out that there is going to be a 20-year high school reunion weekend next month. My plan is to go but I got a lot going on and none of it's free LOL. So I'll have to take some time to determine if that trip makes fiscal sense. Just got tickets to take my daughter to see Justin Beiber though. I didn't get to see Michael, but at least she'll get to see her version and I will be the world's best mom for at least 2 months LOL

I guess that's it for now, I should probably act like I have kids to feed and, well..... feed them LOL. I'll holla.