Another One

[In my DJ Khaled voice]

Let me share this excerpt from my Susan Miller horoscope (y'all know I swear by her):

"I cannot think of a sign more deserving than you to receive the plethora of goodies Jupiter is about to send you, dear Capricorn. Ever since your ruling planet, Saturn, entered Capricorn on December 19, 2017, you began a challenging period, and over the past two years, you were tested on many levels. As is usual with your sign, you soldiered on no matter how daunting the tasks, taking one day at a time and putting one foot in front of the other. You are a realistic soul, and you don’t spend time worrying about things you cannot change, so you focused only on the situations that you could improve, fix, or advance.

Of all the signs, you were tested the most, yet you complained the least. Saturn remains in one sign—in this case, Capricorn–for nearly 3 years. Saturn shows up every 29 years, so if you do the math, you see that you can only have two to three visits of taskmaster Saturn to Capricorn in your lifetime. Saturn, knowing he will not have time to visit you more often, sets up tests and lessons that are so vivid that you will remember all you were taught in three years for the following three decades. You may not realize how much you have grown—think back to where you were in 2016 and early-to-mid 2017, before this trend began...."

I sat back and thought about everything that's transpired since December 19, 2017. Then I went back to read everything I'd written here since, expecting to have it all rush over me like that morning splash to the face, but........ nothing. Or at least, not that. What I felt was the sterility of all the things I chose not to talk about - not because I didn't want to share the experiences, but because I was still working through what they meant for me. I just never circled back. But that being said, I got to my 2018 year-end "look back" and I initially had a hard time reconciling how I could possibly have summed 2018 up as a "good year" given everything I dealt with. I was traumatized. I was disillusioned. I was.... whatever the word is that represents the most fucked up mental and emotional state one can occupy while still giving off the appearance of "fully functioning adult." I KNEW I hadn't blocked it all out, so how the FUCK was 2018 a good year???

Well.... all I had to do was read the post.

It may not have felt good all the time, but baby, Saturn and them tests and lessons? [Paraphrasing] "Shit so real it will last you 3 decades." One. Hundred. Percent. But so what? How do lessons learned equate to a good year? Well, my interpretation of "good" isn't always about having fun or everything going exactly the way you planned. "Good" to me also includes any and every experience that brings you even one step closer to your truth, and 2018 did that for me in spades. There were some things, yeah. But when I look back, they were few. It was the impact that I felt long after. Remove that from the equation and 2018 was a good year. But you know what?

2019 was a GREAT year.

Again, there were some things, but I've learned to take it on the chin and keep it moving. Some things (and people) just don't deserve your energy. With that in mind, I've managed to upgrade my life in just about every aspect. The impact of that is worth holding onto. I take that mindset into 2020 and look forward to continued growth, heightened perspective and better choices. I hope all of our 2020 is just that - a clear vision FORWARD, not just in hindsight.

Vibrate.

Reap.

Repeat.

Glass

We are all made of glass. It's just sometimes we're a mirror, and sometimes we're a window.

We all spend some time, for better or worse, serving as a reflection of the people in our lives. These can be eye-opening images for both them, and you.

At other times, we're the embodiment of something that couldn't be more different. A glimpse into what else might be possible - again, for better or worse.

Both cases present an opportunity.

It's all a matter of how one responds to what they see.

#Perspective