Thursday, March 31, 2011

Nothingness

Ahhh..... you thought I was gonna miss a day, didnt you? Sike! LOL

So what we gonna talk about today? Well.... hell if I know LOL.

I got some awesome headphones in the mail today, that I ordered from Amazon. We could talk about that. Nah...

We could talk about my favorite American Idol contestant escaping elimination on the only double elimination night of the season. No? Ok.

Then let's talk about the Grey's Anatomy season finale.... a MUSICAL! Can you say AWESOME?! What?

Well yall dont wanna talk about what I wanna talk about, so forget it, okay? Just forget it! LOL

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

R.I.P. Myspace?

http://digitallife.today.com/_news/2011/03/29/6369226-myspace-loses-10-million-users-in-one-month-may-die-by-end-of-year?GT1=43001


Remember that old social networking site called MySpace? Turns out that it still exists — for now anyway.

ZDNet reports that statistics gathered up by Internet data tracking site comScore are showing that MySpace is quickly dying. In the last month alone, the social network lost 10 million users — and that's following abandonment by over 50 million people in the prior year.

According to the Telegraph, this means that MySpace is left with about 63 million users. To put that number into perspective, consider that Facebook has more than 600 million active users right now and MySpace had about 180 million during its height in 2007.

These statistics, the pattern of user loss, and various reports of job cuts are fueling speculation that MySpace might not make it through this year.

We'll see what happens, but for now we're not exactly bothering to pretty up our old MySpace profiles in hopes that they'll have a purpose again.

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It would not surprise me.

Prior to logging in to my account over the weekend, I hadnt been in it in 47 days, according to my "last login" stat. Im sure it was even than longer the time before that. I honestly dont even recognize it anymore. I go in and nothing looks familiar. Its like they have tried to copy a lot of the Facebook functionality - the same thing that killed Black Planet, trying to copy Myspace - and its just mad bootleg now. I almost shut my account down when I was in there the other day. I dont know why I didnt, but Im going to, relatively soon. Nobody uses that joint anymore, at least not to contact me. If they did, for their sake, I would hope it wasnt an emergency, cause it would easily be a month before they got a response LOL.

Poor Tom. But that's what he get. Shoulda paid me my $5 in nickels that he owed me. See, God dont like ugly LOL.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

22 Points





Ok so when I first moved from upstate, I was losing mad weight. Between the commute to work and my girlfriend I was staying with being kinda anal about her eating habits, I probably lost a good 15 pounds in the first few weeks of being here. Then I moved into my own place. The commute from home is very similar to the commute from my girl’s place, and I’ve always had pretty decent eating habits of my own…. So how in the FUCK did I manage to gain like 20 pounds (on my ORIGINAL weight)???? Ima tell ya how LOL

So part of my personal “get-your-damn-life-together” program has been to reverse this crazy pattern I somehow found myself in, and that begins with figuring out where I went wrong, because I honestly had no clue. I don’t fry anything, im not really into sweets and stuff, and whatever bad habits I do have, have been pretty consistent since long before this move and never affected me this way. Ok, so I allow myself to deviate from my norms every so often, but I try to compensate for those deviations as much as I can, so WTF? Enter Weight Watchers. Everything I just said is pretty much their philosophy, so we’ll probably get along just fine. One week and -5lbs later, so far so good.

So Im on my way to work this morning and Im feeling a little more hungry than I have been in the last couple of weeks. I guess it makes sense – I am recuperating from being sick all last week and my body is revving back up to 100%. So I stop in …… this place, whose spot Im not gon blow up LOL…… and grab a breakfast sandwich. I stick it in my bag and go on about my business. When I get to work, I settle in and start to eat my food. Suddenly Im curious – what is the cellulite value of this damn sandwich Im eating? LOL Lets find out….. I go online, pull up the Weight Watchers points value tracker, and plug it in…………………

……………………………………………no this muthafucka did not just say 22 points LOL. Yes it did.

Let me put this into some kind of perspective for you: on Weight Watchers, all food has “points” assigned to it, which essentially is representative of its fat content, carb content, any content that is going to affect your weight. I am allotted 34 points to eat in a day. 22 of them muthafuckas was sitting in front of me at that moment, which meant the rest of the day, I was gonna either be eating fucken air sandwiches, or going over my points LOL. *thug claps* 22 points, yo, LOL I kid you not: I don’t think I ever even seen anything on the tracker higher than like 17 LOL To add further perspective, think about it this: the worst thing at McDonald’s you can get is a Big Mac. A Big Mac is 14 points LOL. *slaps thighs* Dude, are you understanding my psychosis right now? LOL

Im buggin. But just like that, Im clear on exactly what the hell happened. That damn breakfast sandwich. Now mind you, I hadn’t had one in two or three weeks, HOWEVER, prior to these last two or three weeks, I was having this fucken breakfast sandwich damn near every morning. I was having it damn near every morning AND continuing to eat normally throughout the rest of the day like a crazy person. For 22 points, a bitch need to be compensating LOL. When I think back, let’s see….. I moved into my place in November…. I think I mighta started with these sandwiches some time in the middle of December. So think about – lets say – three months of fucken 22 point breakfast sandwiches, at least 4 days out of the week.

*drops mic, kicks hole in speaker*

Mmhmm. Yeah LOL.


*pulls plug and jets*

Monday, March 28, 2011

And Another One....


R.I.P. to radio and television personality, DJ Megatron, who was shot and killed, just steps away from his Staten Island home yesterday.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

One Day

"One day can make your life. One day can ruin your life. All life is, is four or five big days that change everything."

This is a poignant line from the movie, Riding In Cars With Boys, starring Drew Barrymore. Really good movie. I stopped to think about what she said, and you know what? She might be right.

When I sit back and think about my life, there have been tons of great times. I've had my share of bad times, too. Really though, all those times have been transitions between the handful of days when life-changing events have rocked my world for the better or the worse... sometimes both. So far, to the best of my recollection:

September ? 1989
June 22, 1997
March 5, 1998
June 7, 2007
Sept 18, 2010
Jan 2, 2011

And life isnt over, so I patiently await the next life-changing moment, praying it will be a change for the better.

Isnt it crazy how one choice... one event.... one day... can send your life in a completely different direction than you were going? Most of us cant look around and say we are exactly where we thought we would be today. That's because we cant control everything that happens to us. But life is only 10% what happens to you, and 90% how you react to it, so the actual event is a lot less important than what you do next. You'll get knocked down to your lowest point, but will you get up? You'll have the opportunity of a lifetime, but will you take advantage of it? You will make the biggest mistake you could have ever made, but will you learn from it? You will suffer the worst heartbreak known to man, but will you allow yourself to love again?

So many different things occur over the course of a life, but you know.... maybe it does really all boil down to just a handful of days that change everything, and all the stuff in between are just colorful details to make the story worth telling. IDK. Just something I was thinking about....

Saturday, March 26, 2011

History Maker Dies



Geraldine Ferraro, the first woman to ever run for Vice President of the United States on a major party ticket has died, at the age of 75. In 1984, she ran under Walter Mondale, on the Democratic ticket, against Ronald Reagaon and the first Bush douche. We all know how that election turned out, but a stride for women everywhere, nonetheless.

Friday, March 25, 2011

OMG Im Dying Up In Here....

Its finally Friday. I have been sick all freakin week. Went to work Monday, got sent home early. Stayed home on Tuesday. Thought I was better on Wednesday – went to work, had some toast and coffee, and went right on back home LOL. Stayed home yesterday. Came in today and I have managed to muddle through most of the day but when I tell you I am struggling right now, I mean I am STRUG-GA-LING! I feel like if I break concentration for just one second, my neck is gonna buckle and my head is gonna slam down on this keyboard and render me unconscious LOL.

I feel so damn weak right now, I am eating just to stay awake LOL. Aint that terrible? Its after 4…. And its Friday….. I could bail and no one would care. But I haven’t really been in all week, so I’d feel like such a slacker….. even though I WAS working from home. Like LEGITIMATELY working from home LOL…… hmmmmmm….. I’ll give it til 4:30, then Im outta here. I need a hot tottie…..

Just Cuz...



Dont ya just love his smile?

Thursday, March 24, 2011

You're Welcome

http://www.webpacman.com/

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Death of a Diva




Ladies and gentlemen, Elizabeth Taylor has passed away. The violet-eyed beauty, sometimes referred to as the "last movie star," departed this earth this morning, at Cedar Sinai Medical Center, of congestive heart failure, after having been hospitalized for six weeks. I always thought Liz Taylor was just FABULOUS, so I am going to ignore the images of the old and decrepid shell of a woman the media last tried to represent her as, and post a pic of Liz in all her fabulous splendor, the way I would like to remember her. I am sad she is no longer with us, but my heart says she just didnt see the point of being here without Michael.

Rest in peace, Liz.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Kronic Kandy






* Chronic Candy (Kronic Kandy) is manufactured by food companies in Amsterdam
and Germany. It is packaged with images of bright green marijuana leaves. The
product taste like marijuana.
• The company and product names use pot-related slang commonly associated with
marijuana including “Acapulco Gold” and “Sticky Icky Skunk”.
• Chronic (Kronic) candy, which is packaged like a lollipop, is being targeted in a
number of communities, particularly in minority communities.
• Chronic (Kronic) candy is sold like marijuana in ‘nickel bags’ and is sold in smoke
stores, some community or convenient stores, gas stations and over the internet
nationwide.

Chronic Candy contains essential hemp oil and is ILLEGAL for Air Force members to ingest. This is not the first product containing Hemp that is marketed towards young adults, Jones Soda offers “Dave” which also contains hemp. Airmen be aware of what you are eating and drinking and the restrictions as outline in the AFI 44-121 below:


“3.5.5. Studies have shown that products made with hemp seed and hemp seed oil may contain varying levels of tetrahydrocannabinol (THC), an active ingredient of marijuana which is detectable under the Air Force Drug Testing Program. In order to ensure military readiness, the ingestion of products containing or products derived from hemp seed or hemp seed oil is prohibited. Failure to comply with the prohibition on the ingestion of products containing or products derived from hemp seed or hemp seed oil is a violation of Article 92, UCMJ.”

Although the above quote is Air Force Specific, it applies to all branches of the military.

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*blink, blink*

Um...............Okay.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Seriously? LOL



http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/42196027/ns/us_news-weird_news


"SAN ANTONIO — A Taco Bell customer enraged that the seven burritos he ordered had gone up in price fired a BB gun at an employee and later fired an assault rifle at officers before barricading himself in a motel room, police said.

As the restaurant's employees and customers hit the floor Sunday, the manager called police and, when officers arrived, the angry patron fired several shots at the police cars, San Antonio Police Sgt. Chris Benavides said.

The man then barricaded himself inside a nearby motel room, sparking a three-hour standoff that ended when police lobbed tear gas inside and the man surrendered.

No one was hurt in the incident.

Store manager Brian Tillerson told the San Antonio Express News that the man "pointed a gun at me, and he fired it. I leaned to the side and there was a pop but nothing happened.”

Police later found a BB, he added, and the following five minutes "were pretty crazy."

The man left and Tillerson saw him put an assault rifle and a handgun on the roof of his car. Fearing he'd return, customers and employees looked for cover as Tillerson locked the doors and called police.

Benavides said the Beefy Crunch burritos had been sold for 99 cents each as a promotion, but the man was apparently angry that the promotion had ended, and the price had gone up to $1.49.

The name of the suspect has not been released because he had not yet been formally charged early Monday.

Benavides said that the man will be charged with three counts of attempted capital murder, and that additional charges are possible.

The man never did get his burritos."


If this guy's mad about the price of burritos, wait'll he sees the price of gas! LOL

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Just Great

So the day started out cool, but somewhere along the line, I managed to get sick. I blew my nose a couple of times yesterday, but nothing that would make me think I'd be sitting on my bed right now, with a roll of toilet paper, having used up all the kleenex in the house, and a plastic bag to toss all the used wads into. This is so not hot.

To add insult to injury, I do a load of laundry. I'm waiting for it to finish, so I can put the stuff in the dryer, and I hear "Oh my gosh!" in the over-the-top, Nickelodeon way my daughter likes to add drama to a situation. I hear her say something about the washing machine to my son, so I get up and find that the hose, which is supposed to be pointing down this hole in the wall, where the water is to run out, has come out of the hole in the wall and water has spewed all over my lacquered hardwoods. *sigh* All this, amidst the fact that my kids decided they were gonna wait until the eleventh hour to realize they hadnt quite finished their homework, did not make for a very good night. Rather than have them stay up late to do it, they will both be getting up at six.

So the tea is piping hot and the Nyquil is on deck, ready to put me out as soon as I finish talking to my baby.

PLEASE, Lord, dont let this be an indication of what this week is going to be like...

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Briefly

I took a cab to Walmart today. I spent $500 and took a cab back home.

I'd really like a drink now.

That is all.

Friday, March 18, 2011

Awww, Alfred!



Likely best known for his role as Alfred Pennyworth, butler to Batman's Bruce Wayne, Actor, Michael Gough, has died at the age of 94. There doesnt seem to be any detail on the cause of death but... dude... he was 94...

#DUH

R.I.P. homie...

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Can I Live?




You know, I have this one friend …. I love her to death, but she has to be the cheapest son of a biscuit I ever knew in my life! LOL And its fine – to each his own – but YOU be cheap. Can I live?

Every time I say I am going to do something, she comes back at me with a cheaper alternative. This would be fine, even awesome, if the cheaper alternative were equally as good as the original plan, but it never is. Its like the difference between drinking a pepsi and drinking an RC Cola. Im sure its fine for some people, I just aint one of em LOL.

Like today I showed her a dinette I wanted to buy for $250. If you know anything about good dinettes, $250 is already a great price. However, this is $250 “on closeout from $1000 ” great, not “it came this price” great, LOL. If a dinette CAME $250, its not a great price, its cheap, and to me, that means a lot more than just inexpensive. Cheap stuff is generally made from cheap materials. Yes, one can take excellent care of their cheap shit and it will look polished and new every time you see it for the next 50 years, but by and large, cheap shit doesn’t tend to last that long. Personally, I rather spend $300 on something once, than spend $99 on it 4 times.

Some might call that line of thinking “bougie,” but like I said, I believe you get what you pay for. Don’t trip – there are some things it doesn’t matter for. Other things, the rule applies to. For instance, I will buy me a $3 t-shirt from Walmart in a heartbeat, if its cute, but I wont buy jeans from there. I wont buy shoes from there. And dammit, I wont buy CD’s from there either, but that’s another story, so I digress LOL. I mean, I guess if there is one thing I did get from my mother, that was it. And it wasn’t about balling, trust me. I think it was exactly the opposite. Coming up, we aint have it like that to be re-buying shit LOL. So my mom would always buy the “good shit” so it would last. Clothes cant be unraveling and fading and shrinking and all that kinda madness. Your sneakers cant be tearing up all quick, you have to take care of your feet. Furniture was a big deal and my mama always liked to entertain, so it had to be sturdy and nice. Those are lessons I took from her, from a young age. Never has it been about flossing….. well I probably had a moment or two, LOL….. but mostly, its about recognizing the difference in the quality of things. My kids are hell on EVERYTHING and I work too hard to be replacing shit. So when you suggest I get the $99 or $199 dinette from Walmart or Big Lots, Im sorry, that’s not gonna work for me. Now I am in no way saying that Walmart does not sell quality goods. I LOVE WALMART! I am simply saying that they don’t specialize in anything, and THAT is kinda the problem for me. Think about it for a second…… feel me? So when it comes to something Im going to demand a lot of, I gotta see a specialist LOL. Unfortunately, Im not one of the lucky ones that can make cheap shit look clevvy. Cheap shit on me looks cheap LOL. Cheap shit in my house gets broke the fuck up LOL. I mean, I just cant do it. Don’t get me wrong, Im a little bit of a snob about certain things, but we all have our preferences.

So sweet, dear friend of mine….. its ok. When I mention a pending purchase to you, remember: you don’t have to pay for any of this shit LOL. Relax. Just tell me if you like the red or the blue, that’s all I asked LOL…..

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Testing Me

Youre a teacher.

You send home a not-so-stellar progress report for a student.

Student’s parent is confused, because 3 days prior, your partner-teacher sent home an excellent progress report. She’s checked off all “excellents”, while you have him in danger of failing, for missing 8 assignments. Yall teaching the same class, the same shit. Which is it?

Now parent has requested that you give her a call to settle the discrepancies, and a week later, you still have not called, but the day said student comes to school and tells you his parent was coming up to the school, oh now you wanna talk to somebody LOL.

So you call and get my voicemail, and your message says to call you at the school between 8am and 2:45, however, you are in class all day and you tell the secretary who rings you to tell me you will call me back. Why would you even have me call in the middle of the school day? You know, I aint even gonna hurt myself trying to figure that out. What I will say, is let you not call me back. TODAY. You will see me TOMORROW.

#realrap

R.I.P. Nate Dogg




http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/42103713



One of the most recognizable voices of the early 90s West Coast hip-hop scene is dead.

Nathaniel D. Hale - better known to the masses as the singer Nate Dogg -- died Tuesday, according to the Long Beach Press-Telegram.

In an interview with the paper, the rapper's family said he passed away early in the day on March 15. He was 41.

Early Wednesday morning, Nate Dogg's brother Samuel called Los Angeles-based radio station KDAY and thanked fans for their good wishes. He declined to comment on his brother's death, but said Nate Dogg had struggled with illness for the past three years and that the family would be releasing a statement.

"We lost a true legend n hip hop n rnb. One of my best friends n a brother to me... I miss u cuzz. I am so sad but so happy I got to grow up wit u and I will c u again n heaven...," Snoop Dogg posted on Twitter.

Nate Dogg became famous for his work with rappers Warren G, Snoop Dogg and Dr. Dre as part of the so-called "G Funk era," a sub-genre of hip-hop that relied heavily on sampling classic 70s funk and soul music. His deep voice was famously employed on Dre's best-selling 1991 album, "The Chronic," and was also featured on Warren G's classic, "Regulators." In total, he contributed to 40 charted singles.

No cause of death was given, however Hale suffered a stroke in 2007 and another the following year, the Press-Telegram reported.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Love

I realize Im stronger than I thought I was. So is he.

I can love harder than I thought I could. So could he.

I can live outside myself for the upliftment of another. So can he.

Love is a crazy thing. Its selflessly putting another before yourself so you can live selfishly in the atmosphere it creates. Its being strong enough to show weakness and giving another person the power to destroy you, but trusting that they never will.

I've been in love before.... but never like this. A person who sees you better than you ever saw yourself makes you want to be better than you have ever been, and all you want to do is return the favor. Just when I think I cant fall any further, I do.... and all I can be is grateful and determined to remain worthy of his affections.

I changed his mind. He changed my life.

Thank you, Jesus.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Foolishness

What grown, responsible person, with kids and a household to support, quits a job without having another in place?

Someone on FB asked opinions today about whether to leave a job with great benefits that he hates. Most people said not to leave without having another job to replace it with, but one person - his wife - came on, talking about how she quit a job she was at for 11 years and found another one right away, with the grace of God, and that if he is confident in his abilities, he should go for it.

*staring into the camera*

FIRST of all LOL, Im all for stepping out on faith, but thats a personal decision that one must be moved to make on their own. You dont TELL somebody to go ahead and quit their job. Even if you are one of immovable faith, its just not sound advice. If his faith was as strong as yours, he wouldnt be on there asking people what he should do.

Second of all, you are his wife. Why didnt yall have this conversation at home? Why doesnt he know - if it is the case - that you are willing to hold down the fort until he finds something? Are you ABLE to hold down the fort until he finds something? And why are you copping an attitude with everybody on the thread who is low key calling you stupid for encouraging your husband to leave his job? Yes, its your husband and what yall do is yall business. He can make any move he wants, as long as you are okay with it. However, part of being an adult is dealing with situations we dont necessarily want to deal with, for the betterment of ourselves and our families, until such time that something better comes along. Why are you encouraging him to behave as if he is owed something? He's not being mistreated, he just doesnt like his job. If I had a dollar for every friend I have who hates their job or the people they work with, I would be a rich bitch. But they got better sense than to leave that joint, before they find something else. Strangely enough, some people actually light their lights at home to work LOL.

Ugh! I get so annoyed with foolishness. The bottom line, WIFEY, is that yall shoulda been talking about this behind closed doors. He should know where you stand and whether or not he has your support, then maybe he wouldnt have to be on FB making life-changing decisions. Heffa! Luckily he's got FB friends with a little more sense than you. *smh*

Karma

So lets talk about karma. I wonder how many of you believe in it and how many don’t… I always kind of took for granted that everybody did – to some extent. I mean, who doesnt believe in karma, right?

Well I was talking to one of my friends today and lo and behold: he does not believe in karma! Word? I said ok, so what do you believe then? He said he believes that we all make our own destiny, we choose our own paths, and nothing comes back to us. (Well wouldn’t that be nice? LOL ) He said, “It’s a matter of how you look at things: you add up the goods and the bads – are they supposed to even out? Says who? Just because I kill a snail, does that mean tomorrow something bad is gonna happen to me? No. I deal with everything individually and make no connections unless they are a direct result of something.”

Ok. I can dig it, but I went on to explain the concept of universal law – that everything is connected – a big ass circle of life – energy you put out, comes back around to you. Yin and yang. The balance of things. All that good stuff. He got it. He just didn’t subscribe to it. He feels like you do what you do and it might cause you to be of fucked up character, but unless its direct cause and effect, aint no force of negativity gonna come back on you for it. You neglect to change your oil, your engine might fry. But your engine isn’t frying because you bought a flip phone LOL…. or because you broke some 13 yr old girl’s heart twenty years ago…. Or because you sent some poor, unsuspecting friend of yours to get her eyebrows waxed, knowing full well it was gonna hurt like bloody hell ………… *snarl*………… LOL. Any occurrence is simply a direct result of whatever preceded it, not some boomerang of energy you’ve thrown out into the world, eventually making its way back to you. He also said his line of thinking helps him deal with his personal situations because he sees them all as separate issues, not some long, interrelated chain of negative events. Ok. I can get with that.

We chopped it up for a few minutes about it, and while I still believe in karma, I have to admit, a pretty good case can be made for there being no such thing. For instance, how legitimate can karma be when it allows the victim to place degrees on their wrongdoing? Take for example that man you stopped sleeping with when he got married on you…. why was it okay when she was just his girl? LOL Either way you were wrong, and shouldn’t have been doing what you were doing, but you mitigated the girlfriend situation because, hey, “she aint shit, he only wit her cause of the baby anyway ‘ LOL, but them vows changed thangs huh? Marriage increased the degree of wrongdoing, for which you would fully expect to reap consequences for. Why is that? I’d offer the element of God as the obvious differential here, LOL, but think of how many other situations, not related to God, shouldn’t be looked at separately and are. For instance, ok, she’s got a man and in your mind, the difference is whether you know him or not LOL. Don’t front, homeboy, you know you think like that LOL. What part of the game is that? I tell you what part of the game it is – GUILT.

I think people do use karma that way. I think sometimes people cant quite get past something that they have done, where they don’t necessarily feel like they made the right decision, or the result of a likely good decision were less than desirable. Because you cant get past it – feeling guilty – you connect something bad happening to you with that incident. You convince yourself that this is happening as payback for what you did two weeks ago…. Or eight months ago….. or in eleventh grade LOL. I definitely think that there are people who do that.

But by and large, I feel like karma doesn’t need your approval. It doesn’t need your understanding, and it damn sure doesn’t need your assistance. I believe that whether you subscribe to it or not, you will fall victim to it at some point or another. Whether you call it by its name, or whether you are arrogant enough to believe that everything you face is of your own deliberate creation, you will reap what you sow. That’s just the way it goes. Don’t be mad at me – I just work here LOL.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Spring Ahead

Hopefully you all remembered to set your clocks one hour ahead before you went to bed last night. Daylight Savings Time began at 2am. If you didnt, hopefully your morning activities have been governed by the time on your cell phone or computer, which should automatically reset for you, and not that clock on your oven or microwave, that's gonna have your ass late for church LOL.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

My Bad, Big



First of all, gotta shout out one of the best rappers to ever do it. Paid homage on my FB, but neglected to do it here, so Im running it back. 14 years ago we lost him, but he's still at the center of every G.O.A.T barbershop conversation on the planet. RIP Notorious BIG, aka Frank White aka Biggie Smalls aka Big Poppa..... whew! Ima get that many aliases when I blow up. Yall just wait.

BEAUTIFUL day, here in Jersey. Took the midgets on a 12 block walk to the local grocery store, which also meant 12 blocks back, carrying bags. Yeah, Im in need of several transplants right about now, but it felt good, once I got the feeling back in my legs LOL.

Monday is my target date for day one back on the wagon, my new bed sleeps AWESOME, I've put my savings plan into action and plans for my Chicago trip next month are well under way. I'd say this was a good day. I feel pretty good.... damn..... I forgot to submit my timesheet..... yall be easy, I gots to go!

Friday, March 11, 2011

Now Wait A Daggone Minute....

Dead fish.

Dead birds.

Gadhafi.

Earthquakes.... that spawn Tsunamis.

Michael. (act like you know)

Gas prices.

Charlie Sheen (LOL).


*squint*


Yall thinking what I'm thinking?

Earthquake!

I dont watch the news - I get all my information online - so Im sure Im on the late bus but........ DAAAAAANG!


http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/42023385/ns/world_news-asiapacific/?gt1=43001


TOKYO — A magnitude 8.9 earthquake — the biggest in modern Japanese history — slammed the island nation's eastern coast Friday, unleashing a 23-foot tsunami that swept boats, cars, buildings and tons of debris miles inland and prompting a "nuclear emergency."

According to police, 200 to 300 bodies were found in the northeastern coastal city of Sendai. The death toll was likely to continue climbing given the scale of Friday's disaster.

The government ordered thousands of residents near a nuclear power plant in Onahama city to evacuate because the plant's system was unable to cool the reactor. The reactor was not leaking radiation but its core remained hot even after a shutdown. The plant is 170 miles northeast of Tokyo.

Dozens of cities and villages along a 1,300-mile stretch of coastline were shaken by violent tremors that reached as far away as Tokyo, hundreds of miles from the epicenter.

"The earthquake has caused major damage in broad areas in northern Japan," Prime Minister Naoto Kan said at a news conference.

The government ordered thousands of residents near a nuclear power plant in Onahama city to evacuate because the plant's system was unable to cool the reactor. The reactor was not leaking radiation but its core remained hot even after a shutdown. The plant is 170 miles (270 kilometers) northeast of Tokyo.

Trouble was reported at two other nuclear plants as well, but there was no radiation leak at any.

Even for a country used to earthquakes, this one was of horrific proportions because of the tsunami that crashed ashore, swallowing everything in its path as it surged several miles (kilometers) inland before retreating. The apocalyptic images of surging water broadcast by Japanese TV networks resembled scenes from a Hollywood disaster movie.

Large fishing boats and other sea vessels rode high waves into the cities, slamming against overpasses or scraping under them and snapping power lines along the way. Upturned and partially submerged vehicles were seen bobbing in the water. Ships anchored in ports crashed against each other.

The highways to the worst-hit coastal areas were severely damaged and communications, including telephone lines, were snapped. Train services in northeastern Japan and in Tokyo, which normally serve 10 million people a day, were also suspended, leaving untold numbers stranded in stations or roaming the streets. Tokyo's Narita airport was closed indefinitely.

Tomoko Koga, a 34-year-old translator and interpreter, tells msnbc.com she couldn’t see any damage from her house in Chiba, outside of Tokyo, but was watching reports of devastation on the news. “I don’t even know what to say. I feel sorry that I’m safe and OK because there are so many people affected by this disaster.”

Koga was waiting to hear back from her father, who was stranded in his office in Tokyo. “He texted us right after the earthquake that there wouldn’t be any way for him to come back home. But after that, we didn’t hear from him. It’s really nerve-wracking.”

Waves of muddy waters flowed over farmland near the city of Sendai, carrying buildings, some on fire, inland as cars attempted to drive away. Sendai airport, north of Tokyo, was inundated with cars, trucks, buses and thick mud deposited over its runways. Fires spread through a section of the city, public broadcaster NHK reported.

More than 300 houses were washed away in Ofunato City alone. Television footage showed mangled debris, uprooted trees, upturned cars and shattered timber littering streets.

The tsunami roared over embankments, washing anything in its path inland before reversing directions and carrying the cars, homes and other debris out to sea. Flames shot from some of the houses, probably because of burst gas pipes.

"Our initial assessment indicates that there has already been enormous damage," Chief Cabinet Secretary Yukio Edano said. "We will make maximum relief effort based on that assessment."

He said the Defense Ministry was sending troops to the quake-hit region. A utility aircraft and several helicopters were on the way.

A large fire erupted at the Cosmo oil refinery in Ichihara city in Chiba prefecture and burned out of control with 100-foot (30 meter) -high flames whipping into the sky.

From northeastern Japan's Miyagi prefecture, NHK showed footage of a large ship being swept away and ramming directly into a breakwater in Kesennuma city.

NHK said more than 4 million buildings were without power in Tokyo and its suburbs.

Also in Miyagi, a fire broke out in a turbine building of a nuclear power plant, but it was later extinguished, said Tohoku Electric Power Co. the company said.

A reactor area of a nearby plant was leaking water, the company said. But it was unclear if the leak was caused by tsunami water or something else. There were no reports of radioactive leaks at any of Japan's nuclear plants.

Jefferies International Limited, a global investment banking group, said it estimated overall losses to be about $10 billion.

The U.S. Geological Survey said the 2:46 p.m. quake was a magnitude 8.9, the biggest earthquake to hit Japan since officials began keeping records in the late 1800s, and one of the biggest ever recorded in the world.

The quake struck at a depth of six miles (10 kilometers), about 80 miles (125 kilometers) off the eastern coast, the agency said. The area is 240 miles (380 kilometers) northeast of Tokyo.

A tsunami warning was extended to a number of Pacific, Southeast Asian and Latin American nations, including Japan, Russia, Indonesia, New Zealand and Chile. In the Philippines, authorities ordered an evacuation of coastal communities, but no unusual waves were reported.

Thousands of people fled their homes in Indonesia after officials warned of a tsunami up to 6 feet (2 meters) high. But waves of only 4 inches (10 centimeters) were measured. No big waves came to the Northern Mariana Islands, a U.S. territory, either.

The first waves hit Hawaii about 1400 GMT (9 a.m. EST) Friday. A tsunami at least 3 feet (a meter) high were recorded on Oahu and Kauai, and officials warned that the waves would continue and could become larger.

In downtown Tokyo, large buildings shook violently and workers poured into the street for safety. TV footage showed a large building on fire and bellowing smoke in the Odaiba district of Tokyo. The tremor bent the upper tip of the iconic Tokyo Tower, a 1,093-foot (333-meter) steel structure inspired by the Eiffel Tower in Paris.

Osamu Akiya, 46, was working in Tokyo at his office in a trading company when the quake hit.

It sent bookshelves and computers crashing to the floor, and cracks appeared in the walls.

"I've been through many earthquakes, but I've never felt anything like this," he said. "I don't know if we'll be able to get home tonight."

Footage on NHK from their Sendai office showed employees stumbling around and books and papers crashing from desks. It also showed a glass shelter at a bus stop in Tokyo completely smashed by the quake and a weeping woman nearby being comforted by another woman.

Several quakes had hit the same region in recent days, including a 7.3 magnitude one on Wednesday that caused no damage.

Hiroshi Sato, a disaster management official in northern Iwate prefecture, said officials were having trouble getting an overall picture of the destruction.

"We don't even know the extent of damage. Roads were badly damaged and cut off as tsunami washed away debris, cars and many other things," he said.

Dozens of fires were reported in northern prefectures of Fukushima, Sendai, Iwate and Ibaraki. Collapsed homes and landslides were also reported in Miyagi.

Japan's worst previous quake was in 1923 in Kanto, an 8.3-magnitude temblor that killed 143,000 people, according to USGS. A 7.2-magnitude quake in Kobe city in 1996 killed 6,400 people.

Japan lies on the "Ring of Fire" — an arc of earthquake and volcanic zones stretching around the Pacific where about 90 percent of the world's quakes occur, including the one that triggered the Dec. 26, 2004, Indian Ocean tsunami that killed an estimated 230,000 people in 12 nations. A magnitude-8.8 temblor that shook central Chile last February also generated a tsunami and killed 524 people.

I Suck at Quitting

Damn, I almost missed a day. Well I guess, technically, I did, since its after midnight, but hey, Im still up, so its still Thursday to me....

Today was actually an awful day. It didnt start out that way, but one bit of bad news just started the ball rolling all extra downhill, and Im just now coming out of the funk I've been in ever since. I confess, I smoked today, but I wasnt prepared for today's bullshit, so it threw me off my course. It's not an excuse - it shows weakness on my part, but hey, I never claimed to be anything more than human. While I was smoking though, I was looking at the cigar like why am I still doing this? I know its time, I just gotta get my shit together.

The aggravation of the day did prove productive though. I do my best thinking when Im upset. I mapped out a plan for budgeting my expenses, while also managing to put money away, I cleaned my house, and Im going to Chicago next month. My new bed came today too - YAY! No more deflating air mattresses and debilitating back pain.... at least not from sleeping on deflating air mattresses LOL.

Dig.....out.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Stop Being So Damn Helpful

I love people. You know what Im sayin? Like in general, I love people. But it annoys me so much when people don’t know when to stop “helping”. Learn that your role is not always to “help” LOL. Sometimes all somebody needs is for you to say “awww” and pay for the drinks LOL

Take for instance, smoking. Yall know I have been struggling with that for quite some time now, and its something I am going to attempt to give up for lent, and hopefully, beyond – remember I said that yesterday? Well…. The road to hell is paved with good intentions, ladies and gentlemen LOL. *smh* Now don’t panic, I haven’t smoked today, although I was soooooo tempted this morning to finish the cigar I only smoked half of last night. But I talked myself down from the ledge, and made it out of the house. Trouble is, even though I NEVER smoke during the work day, I am really sitting here, fidgety as hell right now. No bullshit, it’s like … uncomfortable. For the smokers….. if you’ve ever tried to quit before, I’m feeling like day 4. WTF is that about? As best I can figure it, my body is reacting to the panic in my mind. I didn’t take any prep time to get my mind right before doing this, it was just an abrupt stop – slowing to a cease vs a screeching halt – and that is really what the problem is.

I was talking to a friend about it this morning and she just kept trying to make suggestions about what the problem is. Im TELLING you what the problem is, you just cant see it as the problem because you’ve never had this problem. I say again: if you have never been a smoker, please don’t bother offering helpful suggestions to someone trying to quit, and limit your pep talks to “you can do it!” Anything more and you will just end up pissing them off, not understanding what they’re dealing with. If it was really as easy as it is in your mind, we’d have all quit a long, long time ago, so obviously, you’re missing something. And try not to be offended when I say “nevermind, you cant relate.” Shit, you cant LOL. Its ok. I still love you. Just don’t fucken help me LOL. Don’t.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

40 Days of Blogging

If you could ask God one thing, what would it be? I feel like my answer would definitely vary from day to day, and today, I'd just have to know:


My dude, WTF is up with the number 40? LOL (Shut up, God know I play around LOL) But really doe....


Noah got rained on for 40 days and 40 nights.

Jesus wandered through the desert for 40 days, being tempted.

Moses spent 40 days on Mt Sinai.

Jesus spent 40 hours in the tomb.

Theres a bunch of other 40 references in the bible too that I will skip because they're stories I'm less familiar with, but why 40? I just really need to know what the deal is. So I have decided that during the 40 days of lent (which is really 46 if you dont take the Sundays off like they let you) I am going to read up. Maybe my answer's in there, IDK. Sure wouldnt wanna go asking God a question that was in the book LOL. Then he'll know I aint read it - #everlastinglifeFAIL!

So yeah, thats what Im gonna do for lent. That and give up smoking.... again. Oh come on, dont act like yall didnt suspect I was gonna fall off the wagon LOL. Hell, the first 30 days of my relocation alone woulda warranted somebody taking odds. But its ok, Im getting back on the horse, starting tomorrow, first day of lent. I'm gonna blog my way through it, hit or miss, so bear with me.

By the way, folks, I did some research today and I learned A LOT of stuff. All you gotta do is Wiki ONE SUBJECT and those damn blue links will take you straight down a rabbit hole, LOL. I started with lent. That took me to Mardi Gras and Epiphany and Passiontide and all kinda inter-related stuff. I had no idea Mardi Gras had anything to do with lent or Easter. I thought it was just an excuse for random people to party and be heathens, with no shame LOL. It really was an interesting trip down the information superhighway and I implore all of you - especially those who have been dragged into sacrificing for lent - to just take a look at what its really about. You might have a general idea already, but fill in some of the blanks. And while you're at it, click on some of the other blue links that jump out at you and learn a little something. Stop doing stuff just because somebody asked you to and everybody else in your row at work is talking about it. If it aint American Idol, it aint that simple LOL. Know what its about. Yes, there might also be some horrible backstory that's been lost over centuries (a la Valentine's Day or Halloween) but mainly, I just want you learn some stuff. And keep on learning, whatever you can. You never know when your 9-yr old daughter is gonna need help with a history paper.....

*staring into the camera*

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Why You're Not Married

Grab a chair.... and probably a drink or a snack, because we're gonna be here for a while LOL...


http://www.huffingtonpost.com/tracy-mcmillan/why-youre-not-married_b_822088.html


"You want to get married. It's taken a while to admit it. Saying it out loud -- even in your mind -- feels kind of desperate, kind of unfeminist, kind of definitely not you, or at least not any you that you recognize. Because you're hardly like those girls on TLC saying yes to the dress and you would never compete for a man like those poor actress-wannabes on The Bachelor.

You've never dreamt of an aqua-blue ring box.

Then, something happened. Another birthday, maybe. A breakup. Your brother's wedding. His wife-elect asked you to be a bridesmaid, and suddenly there you were, wondering how in hell you came to be 36-years-old, walking down the aisle wearing something halfway decent from J. Crew that you could totally repurpose with a cute pair of boots and a jean jacket. You started to hate the bride -- she was so effing happy -- and for the first time ever you began to have feelings about the fact that you're not married. You never really cared that much before. But suddenly (it was so sudden) you found yourself wondering... Deep, deep breath... Why you're not married.

Well, I know why.

How? It basically comes down to this: I've been married three times. Yes, three. To a very nice MBA at 19; a very nice minister's son at 32 (and pregnant); and at 40, to a very nice liar and cheater who was just like my dad, if my dad had gone to Harvard instead of doing multiple stints in federal prison.

I was, for some reason, born knowing how to get married. Growing up in foster care is a big part of it. The need for security made me look for very specific traits in the men I dated -- traits it turns out lead to marriage a surprisingly high percentage of the time. Without really trying to, I've become a sort of jailhouse lawyer of relationships -- someone who's had to do so much work on her own case that I can now help you with yours.

But I won't lie. The problem is not men, it's you. Sure, there are lame men out there, but they're not really standing in your way. Because the fact is -- if whatever you're doing right now was going to get you married, you'd already have a ring on it. So without further ado, let's look at the top six reasons why you're not married.

1. You're a Bitch.

Here's what I mean by bitch. I mean you're angry. You probably don't think you're angry. You think you're super smart, or if you've been to a lot of therapy, that you're setting boundaries. But the truth is you're pissed. At your mom. At the military-industrial complex. At Sarah Palin. And it's scaring men off.

The deal is: most men just want to marry someone who is nice to them. I am the mother of a 13-year-old boy, which is like living with the single-cell protozoa version of a husband. Here's what my son wants out of life: macaroni and cheese, a video game, and Kim Kardashian. Have you ever seen Kim Kardashian angry? I didn't think so. You've seen Kim Kardashian smile, wiggle, and make a sex tape. Female anger terrifies men. I know it seems unfair that you have to work around a man's fear and insecurity in order to get married -- but actually, it's perfect, since working around a man's fear and insecurity is big part of what you'll be doing as a wife.


2. You're Shallow.

When it comes to choosing a husband, only one thing really, truly matters: character. So it stands to reason that a man's character should be at the top of the list of things you are looking for, right? But if you're not married, I already know it isn't. Because if you were looking for a man of character, you would have found one by now. Men of character are, by definition, willing to commit.

Instead, you are looking for someone tall. Or rich. Or someone who knows what an Eames chair is. Unfortunately, this is not the thinking of a wife. This is the thinking of a teenaged girl. And men of character do not want to marry teenaged girls. Because teenage girls are never happy. And they never feel like cooking, either.


3. You're a Slut.

Hooking up with some guy in a hot tub on a rooftop is fine for the ladies of Jersey Shore -- but they're not trying to get married. You are. Which means, unfortunately, that if you're having sex outside committed relationships, you will have to stop. Why? Because past a certain age, casual sex is like recreational heroin -- it doesn't stay recreational for long.

That's due in part to this thing called oxytocin -- a bonding hormone that is released when a woman a) nurses her baby and b) has an orgasm -- that will totally mess up your casual-sex game. It's why you can be f**k-buddying with some dude who isn't even all that great and the next thing you know, you're totally strung out on him. And you have no idea how it happened. Oxytocin, that's how it happened. And since nature can't discriminate between marriage material and Charlie Sheen, you're going to have to start being way more selective than you are right now.

4. You're a Liar.

It usually goes something like this: you meet a guy who is cute and likes you, but he's not really available for a relationship. He has some condition that absolutely precludes his availability, like he's married, or he gets around town on a skateboard. Or maybe he just comes right out and says something cryptic and open to interpretation like, "I'm not really available for a relationship right now."

You know if you tell him the truth -- that you're ready for marriage -- he will stop calling. Usually that day. And you don't want that. So you just tell him how perfect this is because you only want to have sex for fun! You love having fun sex! And you don't want to get in a relationship at all! You swear!

About ten minutes later, the oxytocin kicks in. You start wanting more. But you don't tell him that. That's your secret -- just between you and 22,000 of your closest girlfriends. Instead, you hang around, having sex with him, waiting for him to figure out that he can't live without you. I have news: he will never "figure" this out. He already knows he can live without you just fine. And so do you. Or you wouldn't be lying to him in the first place.

5. You're Selfish.

If you're not married, chances are you think a lot about you. You think about your thighs, your outfits, your naso-labial folds. You think about your career, or if you don't have one, you think about doing yoga teacher training. Sometimes you think about how marrying a wealthy guy -- or at least a guy with a really, really good job -- would solve all your problems.



Howevs, a good wife, even a halfway decent one, does not spend most of her day thinking about herself. She has too much s**t to do, especially after having kids. This is why you see a lot of celebrity women getting husbands after they adopt. The kids put the woman on notice: Bitch, hello! It's not all about you anymore! After a year or two of thinking about someone other than herself, suddenly, Brad Pitt or Harrison Ford comes along and decides to significantly other her. Which is also to say -- if what you really want is a baby, go get you one. Your husband will be along shortly. Motherhood has a way of weeding out the lotharios.

6. You're Not Good Enough.

Oh, I don't think that. You do. I can tell because you're not looking for a partner who is your equal. No, you want someone better than you are: better looking, better family, better job.

Here is what you need to know: You are enough right this minute. Period. Not understanding this is a major obstacle to getting married, since women who don't know their own worth make terrible wives. Why? You can fake it for a while, but ultimately you won't love your spouse any better than you love yourself. Smart men know this.

I see this at my son's artsy, progressive school. Of 183 kids, maybe six have moms who are as cute as you're trying to be. They're attractive, sure. They're just not objects. Their husbands (wisely) chose them for their character, not their cup size.

Alright, so that's the bad news. The good news is that I believe every woman who wants to can find a great partner. You're just going to need to get rid of the idea that marriage will make you happy. It won't. Once the initial high wears off, you'll just be you, except with twice as much laundry.

Because ultimately, marriage is not about getting something -- it's about giving it. Strangely, men understand this more than we do. Probably because for them marriage involves sacrificing their most treasured possession -- a free-agent penis -- and for us, it's the culmination of a princess fantasy so universal, it built Disneyland.

The bottom line is that marriage is just a long-term opportunity to practice loving someone even when they don't deserve it. Because most of the time, your messy, farting, macaroni-and-cheese eating man will not be doing what you want him to. But as you give him love anyway -- because you have made up your mind to transform yourself into a person who is practicing being kind, deep, virtuous, truthful, giving, and most of all, accepting of your own dear self -- you will find that you will experience the very thing you wanted all along:

Love."

Tracy McMillan is a TV writer whose credits include Mad Men and The United States of Tara. Her memoir I Love You and I'm Leaving You Anyway is now available in paperback from Harper Collins/It Books
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Whew.

Ok, so I admit: I copied and pasted this article before I actually read it, because I knew it was gonna be comment-worthy, but I really expected to have to come in here and rip this broad a new one LOL. Come to find out, I dont have a lot to say. For the most part, I agree.

I stumbled across this article via a second article, where a blogger was interviewing the author about the backlash she received after writing it. Women all over the place were all up at arms about the things she said, clearly not understanding 1) that there was a lot of sarcasm and satire in what was being said and 2) that these are generalizations. If it doesnt apply, let it fly. If you're mad about it, breathe fog back onto that mirror in front of you and keep pretending not to see yourself. Its cool. No judgment here. Matter of fact, Im SO not judging you, that Im about to call myself on my OWN bullshit. Check it.

1- Angry. Yup. Most people wouldnt use that word to describe me - I wouldnt either - but the fact is, I was angry.... at my mama. Yall read, yall know. But its not even just about the one-off beefs she and I got into. Underneath it all, I was kinda angry that she never gave me anything to look forward to. In the interest of not putting her business all in the street, I wont go into details, but when it came to successful relationships, she surely never figured it out. I was mad at my father too, for not being there to let me see, firsthand, why I hate him. I was also angry at my Ex for destroying everything that made me "me". I couldnt BUY a successful relationship after him and, for the most part, it was because I couldnt fully get out of it. Mentally, I mean. And when I finally did, I was mad at myself for buying the damn magic beans. Im still waiting on my gotdamn beanstalk.

2-Shallow. Yup. Again, most people probably wouldnt use this word to describe me, and I generally wouldnt either, but I can think of at least one good one I let pass me by behind something superficial. In my defense though, I was young, and while I still should have known better, I didnt.

3-Slut..... *staring into the camera*...... "Here lies casual sex. It departed this earth on June 7th, 2007. Details of its death have not yet been released. It is survived by an overwhelming desire for meaningful interaction and an abundance of Excedrin, extra strength." Im just sayin.

4-LIES! This is what me and my twin have affectionately dubbed "signing the waiver." I believe I have blogged about that before, and I have been guilty of it, on more than one occasion in my former life. Again, in my defense though, I didnt really know what I wanted, so "lying" is relative.

5- Selfish... by her definition, mmmmmm........not so much.

6- Not good enough... another one I think I dodged. Personally, I've always been rather arrogant in my approach LOL. I had the audacity to date DOWN, like I was gonna upgrade some-damn-body LOL. Fuck I was thinking bout, I dont EVEN know LOL

Anyway, I say all that to say this: "Dont be mad, Twan" LOL Be honest with yourself. Im honest with myself. I accept myself for the walking contradiction and work in progress that I am, and I dont feel a need to hide it. I've done a lotta ignorant shit in my time, but I've generally done it with eyes wide open. Be honest. You cant fix anything broken in your life until you do. Have a sense of humor about it, but acknowledge it. You aint shit LOL. Its ok. You hopefully get to a point where you are willing to look at yourself and make the necessary adjustments to not only make yourself a prize worthy of winning, but just a happier person all around. And make no mistake - I dont know if these are really reasons why women arent married, but I do know these are reasons why this world is full of miserable bitches. Half of em dont even know they're miserable. I'd say about one in three women are miserable LOL. Look to your left. Now look to your right. If you dont see a miserable bitch, its you LOL.

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Tuesday, March 1, 2011

On a Mission

http://www.essence.com/lifestyle/hot_topics_3/walk_the_walk_mary_marys_advice_on_balance.php



So first of all, my apologies for not being able to get in here more often, but you know how it is in my world – if it aint one thing, its another. Don’t be alarmed – all is well LOL – but lately it seems I am just all over the place. Stuff to do, stuff to remember, stuff to pick up, stuff to drop off, stuff to fix, stuff to schedule, stuff to……… *sigh*……. IF I have the presence of mind to blog about something, I’m usually too tired to do it.

But I couldn’t figure out why I was so tired. I mean, yes, its warranted just on the daily commute alone LOL, then you throw in a couple of kids and there ya go…… but I still feel like I shouldn’t be this tired all the time. Its like all of a sudden too. When I first moved, that commute had my legs, abs and everything else burning like California wildfire, and you could SEE physical changes occurring. Then all of a sudden – after I got my place – it was like something threw me in reverse. In my mind, I wasnt doing anything different. I have a very similar commute as the one I had then, I was drinking the same and actually eating less….. *pause*…….the more I thought about it, the more I realized I was – and still am – actually eating a LOT less. Until recently, most days, I was eating once a day, at lunch time. #FAIL

So I sat and did some thinking about how to attack this situation, talked to a couple of people, and I think I am on the path. Baby steps, of course, but on the path, nevertheless. Objective? Well, I guess it would be cool to lose a couple pounds…. again….. but my main goal right now is just to feel better when I get home. I feel like a big ass pat of butter sliding down a stack of pancakes LOL. I be at work all day, planning in my head all the stuff Ima do when I get off, I get home and aint tryna do a gotdamn thing but be a pat of butter LOL. So time to make some alterations. Read a pretty good blog by Mary Mary today too (that’s it linked up at the top^). Its about learning how to balance out your life. Women especially tend to overextend themselves, taking care of everybody but ourselves. Lord knows Im guilty of it. Whenever time runs short in a day, and we have to move some things around, the first appointments to get canceled are our own personal ones. Why do you think feeling rundown and looking rundown aint but a minute apart? LOL

Well with that said, Im about to blow this popsicle stand and tend to these eyebrows I have been neglecting. Then I am going to stop at the store and buy a new bottle of vitamins that….. arent….. expired….. LOL. Don’t judge me…..