Good Grief!

Ugh.

So you know how youre kinda done with somebody and you really don’t wanna be bothered with them anymore, but they just don’t get it? Correction: they get it, but they just don’t want it to be over. Well I really wish said people were always jerks or folks you didn’t mind being mean to. I have absolutely no problem with that. But when someone is really the opposite – a nice guy who just wont let go – its soooooo much harder. You don’t want to be mean to them or hurt their feelings, but they make you so frustrated, you just wanna grab em by the collar and shake em to sleep LOL.

The last guy I was seeing – yall know, the “pseudo sig” – just will not go away. He’s cool and everything we were trying to do was based on a friendship, so when I decided that there couldn’t be anything more, I wanted to at least be able to preserve that. I think I told yall a couple weeks ago that he hit me up on FB, saying he knows he told me he agreed with me but didn’t really mean it. I sort of checked him that night, and he got mad and e-stormed out of the chat. If nothing else, I thought he’d at least avoid me for a while. No such luck.

For the last few nights, whenever he sees me on there, he sends me messages about loving me or missing me or some other shit I really aint tryna hear. I am not very often at a loss for words, but I really haven’t known how to respond. I don’t want to hurt his feelings, and I really would like to be able to preserve the friendship, but its like he doesn’t know how to talk to me without going into all the things he misses about us and how in his mind I am still his girl (which, by the way, I never was, to be clear). All that does is make me all uncomfortable and short in my responses. Like dude, WHY do you insist on doing this? I have told him several times that I stand firm on his release and that its not going to change. I don’t know what else to say to him. Then he’s doing stupid shit too, like putting up statuses about having spent the day with somebody and how he’s about to take her back to the crib, so I can be jealous and make a comment about it, but I never do. I only know he is doing it because he brings it to my attention, asking why I didn’t say anything. First of all, WHERE THEY DO THAT AT??? We too grown for that. COME ON SON! I swear, he makes me not want to talk to him at all. OMG, he’s writing me right now, talking bout he don’t play with the L word, not many have heard him say it and he meant it. Sheesh! Ok, I get it. WTF do you want me to say?

**sigh**

I think Im just gonna have to tell him he has to chill out or Im not gonna talk to him. Im sure I have already said it, but I aint feelin like he heard it. I shouldn’t have to go into stealth mode when Im on there, or avoid being on there cause he cant get his emotions together. I have tried to be nice, but I guess some people don’t speak that language….