Feeling good

I woke up this morning, threw a load in the wash, went in the kitchen to make some coffee and found myself dancing....again. I dont know why I do it, but Im always dancing in the kitchen. And its not just my kitchen, its any kitchen. My baby brought it to my attention when she saw me dancing in front of my mom's stove and I found myself doing it at my girlfriend's house too. It made me giggle this morning but it also made me wonder if I had some kind of dancing kitchen spirit inside me LOL. When I found myself googling it (finding nothing), I realized I have been watching too much TV. I stumbled across this show called Supernatural earlier this week and the two episodes I watched were so good, I had to Netflix the earlier seasons. Did I mention its currently in season 8? LOL So I've spent the last few days watching seasons 1 and 2 and becoming completely drawn in to the madness. But its a really good show and some of the things it talks about like restless spirits being unable to let go, being caught in between two worlds and things like that kinda struck a chord with me. I dont know how "supernatural" it is in my case, but it's definitely been my experience, so I prayed about it.

Clearly my thoughts and spirit were a little bit jumbled when the new year came in, but clarity found me early yesterday morning. As of then, Im feeling kind of awesome.

I realized this morning that I've hit that weight milestone I set for year-end, now one final, short stretch and I'm where I wanna be. Leather pants, here I come LOL.

I spent about two days wrangling with the old flame issue I encountered back home and now its like it almost never even happened. I've noticed over the last day or two that I've just about extinguished all the burning sensations (horrible choice of phrasing, I know, but since I consider them toxic, it fits LOL) that typically cause issues for me. Kinda weird, but its almost like the slates have been wiped completely clean and everybody's been put back into their original packaging. It came to me when I realized something I was expecting to happen hadnt.... and I didnt care. I'd have NEVER not cared. In fact, I woulda took to email or picked up the phone and let off about it LOL. It should have been a big deal. But it wasnt. And I got to thinking about a couple of other recent things that should have been big deals - or would have been previously - and they werent either. Ask and ye shall receive. I wanted the past to release me and it appears to be doing just that. Im no fool - Im sure there is plenty still lingering that just hasnt surfaced, but Im confident that'll also be handled accordingly in its time.

The pic above is something my mother always includes in her emails to me. I dont know where she got it, but when I opened the big box she sent back with me, the 18" x 24" inch, glass and wood-framed version of it was inside. Somehow Mama always knows. I've got the perfect spot for it.