My Bed Hates Me

And again I've been up since the ass crack of dawn. I think my bed hates me.

5:50 this time. Called myself trying to go back to sleep, but 10 minutes later, my alarm goes off, cause I forgot to cancel it for the holiday. Turned it off, canceled the one that was coming 30 minutes later and again tried to force myself back to sleep. It just was not happening, so I just layed there with my eyes closed and the cover over my head to block out the sun and opened my mind and spirit to everything I knew was coming.

God's time with me is usually in the 4:00 hour, but I guess he's on daylight savings time too LOL. Typically I'd wake up some time in that hour, feeling fully awake, not groggy, not anything - just up. There would be no discernable thoughts flowing through my mind, but I'd know something was happening. 10 or 15 minutes later, I'd go right back to sleep, like it never happened. Wasnt no "right back to sleep" this time, but I think I was having another one of those experiences.

This time, the thoughts were conscious, but I wasnt powering them. I've been going back and forth about some things and had decided to be still until God showed me the direction to take. One of those things, Im now pretty clear on. It might not have been the biggest issue, but definitely the most sensitive. Clarity on the others, I hope will also be coming down the pike relatively soon.

So maybe my bed doesnt hate me. God just loves me LOL and he wants his time with me when he wants his time with me. If its 4 or 5am, hey, you gotta be there for the ones you love LOL. I feel lighter, so I cant be mad, even if I do wish I was STILL sleeping right now.... *smh*