Little Things

I asked a friend if she wanted to do something tonight and made a poor choice of words in doing so. She made a big deal about it, but she jokes alot, so I dont even know if she was serious when she was like "really, dude?" (it was via text) but when I thought about how I asked her, I felt like an asshole. I didnt mean anything by it, and she probably knew that, but I decided to apologize anyway.

See, sometimes something little can make a person feel some kind of way, and my mom is the Queen of offending people, simply by asking or saying things the wrong way. I feel like she even knows it sounds bad sometimes and just wont take responsibility for it, like she's entitled to say what she wants, how she wants, especially to my sisters and me, just because she's our mother. I dont want there to be any kind of relational caveats to my level of respect for people, and I definitely dont want to turn into the person I feel she's become, oblivious to people's feelings and above reproach. So even if that friend was just giving me grief tonight, I still felt like apologizing would at least show that I didnt MEAN to be a jerk, and that it was important to me that she knew that. After all, people will eventually forget what you say, but they never forget how you made them feel.

I know a lot of people who just say shit and dont think twice about it, but maybe more people should. You never know how something you say or do to somebody could affect your relationship. Next thing you know, they wont take your calls, and you dont know why. So just think about it. A little thing to you could be a big deal to somebody else.

Yall be easy.