Beyonce's Lemonade

Some of y'all are probably gonna feel a way about this post, but this my house, so in true "Lemonade" spirit, #NOFXGIVEN. Don't get comfortable "other folks" because some of y'all might feel a way by the end of this too. This is gonna be all over the place. Please see previous disclaimer.

One of our last living musical legends has died, been autopsied, cremated and memorialized all in a span of 3 days. Before dove tears could dry, Beyonce has dropped her sixth album, entitled "Lemonade", complete with HBO special, which aired last night. Prince fans were already shorted time to grieve by the speed of all these arrangements and now this heffa once again has the internet all abuzz. I know programming had already been set in advance, but I'm still salty about the timing. That said, it has provided an oddly welcomed distraction from my feelings, so.... I'm gonna go on ahead and drink the Kool-Aid.

Now if you can't tell by now, I ain't really here for Bey - not 2016 Bey, anyway. I loved Destiny's Child and I was a modest fan of her earlier solo work as well. All this new-age ratchetness she's fallen into has left a bad taste in my mouth. The things she's done, the level she has reached in her career; why you rolling around on the floor with platinum grills on? Why you still out here in next to nothing, grinding and twerking? Don't get me wrong, she is at a level where she can absolutely do whatever the fuck she wants, but it annoys me that the things she chooses to do are things them young starter bitches gotta do to get on. You don't have to do that so I question why she chooses to. That said, Partition bangs. It is what it is.

I didn't catch the HBO special last night, but my Facebook timeline was flooded with a double video from the album this morning. In the video, Bey merges two songs (Don't Hurt Yourself and I think the other is I Aint Sorry) about being fed up with a cheating husband. Now we don't know for sure this is about her and Jay-Z, but we can speculate that it is based on recent occurrences. If you've been under a rock somewhere for the past couple years, allow me to fill you in:

- Most eyebrows first started to raise when Bey's sister, Solange, was caught on video going OFF in an elevator, trying to fight Jay-Z during a gala at, I think, the Met. Speculation then was that the altercation was as a result of Solange standing up for her sister. We didn't know right away what that was about, but most came to the conclusion that it had something to do with a woman Jay was being far too friendly with. Some speculated it was Rihanna initially, who was also at the event, but later sources indicated that it was fashion designer Rachel Roy.

- Last month, it was reported that Beyonce showed up to a party given for Kelly Rowland, upset. She allegedly began drinking like a fish and crying, saying she wanted a divorce. Sources said her mother pulled her aside, essentially told her to get her shit together, and Beyonce recanted to the group, saying she was just joking.

A few other things supposedly occurred that made people wonder what was really going on behind closed doors with the couple, but these are the two major incidents that fueled the "trouble in paradise" fire. Fast forward to this video and she seems to be confirming that all may not be well in the Carter home. Among other things, Bey seems to be saying that Jay is a liar who comes home all times of night and she's had enough of his shenanigans, as evident in the statement, "You try this shit again, you gon lose your wife," followed by a taunting toss of her ring into the camera. In the second part of the video, which co-stars Serena Williams, Bey repeats, "I ain't sorry," and "I ain't thinking bout you." She also states she and her baby gonna be alright and ends the song with, "You better call Becky with the good hair."

*pause* ................. LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Sorry, I lost my whole entire shit on that part LOL.

As reported on fan favorite B. Scott's blog, "Becky with the good hair" appears to be Rachel Roy. Rachel so much as confirmed this when she started sneak-dissing on Twitter, posting: “Good hair don’t care, but we will take good lighting, for selfies, or self truths, always. live in the light #nodramaqueens.” Definite #rookiemove but the fact that she even did this would cause one to believe that this has been an ongoing issue, and/or something else happened more recently for her to assume the song was about her (No Carlie Simon). You can read the B. Scott story here (cut and paste): http://www.lovebscott.com/news/the-other-woman-rachel-roy-just-outed-herself-as-becky-with-the-good-hair-in-beyonces-lemonade-photo

Now again, I don't know if this is really about Beyonce and Jay-Z, but assuming it is, I had a whole lotta feelings about all of this. Most I'll save for another blog but I will say this much....

On the one hand, after the third run of this video, I wanted to applaud Beyonce for standing up for herself on some "I don't need you, nigga" shit and seemingly harnessing her power, but I couldn't help but cringe a little at the fact that she vented in this manner. Not even necessarily because she is putting all her business in the street, but because it pretty much made void all the years she and her camp put into being super private. It seemed painfully counterproductive. That said, one could also argue that she's taking back control of her life, finally not afraid to speak her truth and is done protecting HIS image. But let's talk about his image.

Many of us were surprised to learn that she had married Jay-Z. He's like the epitome of "You sure?" LOL Because it makes total sense from the Jay-Z perspective but not so much from hers. With him you got the "Get me a good girl who has her own so she won't be after mine and because she is naive, she'll be 'crazy in love' and she will want to believe that I would never do these things." I ain't saying that's what he was thinking but.... a lot of us thought that is what he was thinking LOL. I say that to say Jay-Z was kind of a bad boy. And he's not fucken ASAP Rocky, he's Jay muthafucken Z, legendary hip hop entrepreneur extraordinaire. He did shit that it wouldn't stand to reason to most of us that he would stop doing, i.e. fuck bitches LOL. I will admit, he did give off the perception of the stand-up guy for a LONG time. I was very proud of the power couple they became and even prouder of the lack of scandal that surrounded them for so long. When all this stuff started spewing out from every social orifice, it was like.... it was bound to happen eventually. Not because all men cheat, but because ain't shit niggas ain't shit LOL.

Let's not act like we forgot all the Jay-Z antics of the 90's. Let's never forget all the OPP Jay-Z was attached to. Let me remind you that Rachel Roy was engaged to his one-time business partner and BFF, Dame Dash. I don't think a lot of us believe this alleged affair hasn't been going on since way back then. I surely don't.

I don't want this album to be art imitating life because I love Jay-Z and I want to believe he's grown up. But "Big Homie need to grow up" doesn't give me much hope.

For those of you, like me, who missed "Lemonade" last night, it will be airing on HBO again tonight at 8pm. If you don't have HBO, no worries. HBO is running a free trial weekend right now so you'll be able to tune in too. OR, I did find the full video after watching these two. You can catch it on my Facebook page right now.... til somebody shuts me down.