Letter to Someone You Dont Talk To As Much As You'd Like

Dear Lord,

This may be an odd letter to address to You, since I talk to You every day already, but I feel like I could stand to do it a little more consistently than prayers at night and the occasional “Thank You, Jesus!” I shout when something goes my way. I know there is so much more that I should be doing.

Before I moved downstate, I was going to church pretty regularly. I realize that You are wherever I am, whether that’s in a pew or a pub, but I also understand the value of fellowship, and I tried to commit, at least to the level of not missing three Sundays in a row…. Hey. Baby steps. LOL …. But since I moved, I haven’t seen the inside of anybody’s church. Maybe that’s because, around here, the outside of everybody’s church is bright yellow, with a Spanish marquee, but I don’t wanna make excuses LOL.

So I bought a new bible, as mine got lost in the transition, and I said I was gonna start to read a little of it every day. And I did…… for like two days ……. but I put a pretty good dent in that Matthew! I read some real important sounding stuff! LOL I read enough in those two days to know that that old guy who was trying to tell me the world was ending on May 21 was full of….. stuff LOL.

And I do talk to You sometimes, just for no reason. I see something beautiful, while Im out walking, and I’ll thank You out loud for it. I pray right on the spot for anybody who requests spiritual support and whenever my children leave my side, I pray Your covering over them. So its not like I DON’T talk to You, I think I just acknowledge that I could be doing a lot more. Its so easy to fall out of a routine if you don’t give it enough chance to really cement into one, and I am starting to realize that when I look around and don’t recognize where I am, or how I got there, it’s a sign that I somehow lost my anchor. At a time like now, when I have so many big decisions to make, is when I really need to be able to not only come to You for direction, but also be able to hear You when You answer. And while that quack was wrong about May 21, I know You will be returning some day, and it wont be long, with all this craziness all around. I don’t wanna come up to the gate and have Peter tell me “see, we MEANT to put you on the list, you know, how you MEANT to finish reading that bible and how you MEANT to find yourself a new church? Yeah, like that. Our bad.” LOL…… that would be a bad day. I don’t want that.

So this is me, owning up to my own laziness and procrastination. I don’t make any excuses for it, I suck. I know. But You know my heart, Lord LOL. I’ll do better.

Forever, Dig