Letter to Someone Who Pesters Your Mind - Good or Bad

No one pesters my mind. I really dont let anyone's bullshit bother me for too long - definitely not long enough to stay on my mind when I dont want it there. The thing that has been pestering me most lately is this situation with my job and the decisions I have to make regarding that.

Dear Washington,DC-

You are a lovely city, and once upon a time, I definitely saw myself living there, but now that I have settled into my NYC/NJ digs, I really can't imagine making that move. Of course, I would do it if I absolutely had to, but you have to understand the situation that I am in.

I uprooted my family and moved for an opportunity that I couldnt pass up - a prestigious job, making more money that I could ever make upstate, and a free pass out of a city that was sucking me dry. I wanted to show my children something more, and I knew I couldnt do that there, afraid to step out of what was comfortable. I was told that my job could be in DC or NY, but at the time I signed the papers, NY was the location.

My kids have only been her for six months, enrolling in school and adjusting to their new environment. To move them again, so soon, is just not something I want to do. Aside from that, my contract status is not being changed at the moment, and the program I am working with is not really doing what it was thought to do, rendering it vulnerable to elimination. Those things, coupled with the fact that I would not be eligible, as a contractor, for any relocation assistance, equals no incentive for me to inconvenience myself with another life change. I just dont see the security in making that move.

At this point, I have more "active" friends in the DC area than I do here, in the NYC/NJ area, but no family at all, let alone close members that I could fall on if things went south. I was perfectly willing to move to DC initially, should that be where the position required me to be, but that wasnt the case, and I just feel like asking me to move again now is unfair, especially having to do it on my own.... again..... but until and unless I find something else, I have to keep it an open option.

I dont know for sure what I am going to do, but I am sure that I will do whatever I deem best for myself and my family, and I hope you approve. If you dont.... to hell wit ya.

Forever, Dig