Progress

I know, I know, its been a hectic week. Yall can turn off the hate mail now LOL.

I spent pretty much all week in DC, came back last night. Walked in the house and it was like the dryest "hi.." ever in life, on both my part and hers. After traveling and working hard and dealing with the rain and taxis that are, at first, non-existent, and then costing a grip to get me where I needed to go, I really would have liked to come home to my own shit. I think last night is when it set in most heavily, like yo, I gots to get hot. Then tonight... who in the hell spit-shines their crib at 10/9 central? LOL Im not talking about straightening up or making the place presentable for company - Im talking about laying on the floor with a damp rag, cleaning up under cabinets type shit. Im sitting on the couch, in the middle of the room, and she's getting her Hazel on all around me for like two hours, nobody saying a word the whole time. Seriously? It was the kind of uncomfortable that made me not even feel right asking if she wanted some help, like she'd just say no cause she wanted it done her way, like everything else, and that just made it worse, cause, of course, I felt like I was painted into a corner.

So I spent all day searching listings and I have to go see two of them tomorrow, both in Jersey - ugh! I REALLY dont wanna be in Jersey, but price and space-wise, as well as commute and time-wise, its what I think Im gonna end up doing for the time being. At least I will have my own space and can start to put things together for the midgets to come down, and come summer, I can move into the city, where I really wanna be. But we'll see. I may not even dig these places. I will keep you posted. Im in town all next week, so I will be able to see some more spots, as I find them, and then Im gone the whole following week. If I havent worked it out by the time I come back, I think Im just gonna relocate to a hotel near the job. It may raise an eyebrow, and it will surely spend money I should be saving, but its probably the best way to preserve a friendship being quietly punched in the throat via our current situation. Again, we'll see.

But I do have my own desk and phone now at work (YAY!) and I am now starting to see places since I finally have the money to secure one. Im making progress. Im also in the process of making arrangements to move the midgets from one grandmother to another, where I feel they will be a lot better off and I wont have to worry about the type of foolishness that has been going on at my mom's. I didnt even tell yall about the major blowup that occurred on Tuesday night. Im not even gonna get into it now, but suffice it to say that that situation was not gonna work out. Things are slowly moving along though and I am getting a handle on this process. Im starting to develop a little routine and as soon as I have a permanent address, that routine can be cemented. This is gonna work out. I've given up everything I have and its not gonna be for nothing....