Gravity 2

On the way home the other night, I dropped a ten dollar bill in the guitar case of a guy who was singing outside of the Pathmark when I got off the bus. It was partially because I felt bad for not leaving money for various people I've heard in the subway who really were awesome, partially because he was awesome, and partially because I had no other place to leave an offering.

One thing I really miss is having a church to go to when I feel like I felt the other night. That night (or morning) I woke up at 4-something, as I typically do when God feels like He has something to say. I never really know what He's telling me, but I usually wake up in the morning feeling differently than I did the night before. That particular morning, I woke up to a text from one of my friends, who I miss so dearly.... "You never have to ask 'Father can you hear me?' He can, He always does & He always will provide a way." Thank you. I really needed to be reminded that the will of God will never take me where the grace of God wont protect me, and that there is a reason I am where I am right now, doing what Im doing, even when I dont know what it is.

Its amazing. Today I was outside, listening to my IPOD, and the same song I heard the other night came on: Gravity. It sounded different.

"Twice as much and twice as good, and cant sustain like one half could.
Its wanting more, its gonna send me to my knees..."

On my knees is where I needed to be.

I woke up this morning and watched a show I've never watched before: Life Every Voice. If you have never seen it, it basically brings celebrities on to talk about how much a part Jesus plays in their lives. I was hit hard by some things that were said, and reminded, once again, to hold to my faith. "Gravity" now sounded like more of a song of acknowledgement than one of woe. It was a song that said "I know you see whats happening around you, but remember who you are and who HE is."

And I will.