I Aint Sayin She A Golddigger

I could probably be happy with him, as a person, but he's broke. Am I wrong for not entertaining the idea?

I mean, Ive been there and done that with others. No car, no job - or at least not one worth mentioning - and a whole lot of "well I could" but never do's. Great guy though, and loves me to death, always has, but somebody who could be doing more and just is satisfied with their station in life always ends up being a problem for me. Drive is sexy - at least to me. I dont wanna feel like a person is living off me, and said person definitely aint gonna be the "man" in the relationship if he's not being the "man" if you know what I mean. Im not looking for a house husband. I dont think I could even be with a man who wouldnt have issue with being one.

Is it me? Am I being.... IDK.... materialistic? I dont think I am. I mean, I aint never been a golddigger. I got my own, I get my own and dont need nobody else's, but I got kids to feed and bills to pay. Im a "fill the need" kinda woman, so another person [ultimately] in the situation is just another responsibility for me if he isnt pulling his weight, and Im really not tryna re-raise or take care of a grown ass man. Every time I talk to him, its smiles and warm fuzzies. Just seeing his name on my caller ID produces those effects, but.... if I know in the long run Im gonna require more.... arent I saving us both the time and trouble? I mean.... arent I?