And So It Goes

Every day I learn something and one of the things I am seeing more and more is how lucky I am to have a sense of humor. Not only does it seem to make me endearing to the people around me, it keeps me from becoming depressed or angry about things that I have no control over.

I listen to the complaints of people I know and the compassion doesn’t always come easy. I find that people tend to bitch about trivial things that only have any effect on them because they invite them to do so, but even more than that, the things are just the type of things that the universe spits out at all of us, to let us know its still in charge. You gotta laugh at shit like that.

Take for instance the ep I was supposed to swing last night. It never happened because of forces outside of my control – barring my participation in the form of blowing another date off for this one, and staying up later than I otherwise would have been. Those forces outside of my control were all but totally within his, and he fucked it up in the tackiest way allowed by law, but I came to the conclusion that he just didn’t know any better LOL. I have an idea of what he’s used to, and Im surely not that, but those former conquests would have still been waiting at 3:18am when that text came through, and got in their car, simply because he is who he is and they had waited twenty years for that night. I blame them for perpetuating that type of bullshit, but at the end of the day, he is responsible for his own. I could be mad at him, vow to never speak to him again and all that, but what would be the point? After all, like I told my girl yesterday in regards to something she came to me about, sometimes things just aint gonna happen, no matter how much you want them to. This wasn’t our first near miss, and if the universe has its way, it probably wont be the last, (unless I simply choose not to make myself available for it) because that’s just kind of our story. But there is a reason its not happening. There is a reason it hadn’t prior to now, and there is a reason it probably never will. I accept that and therefore can only laugh about it. Nevermind the fact that I almost sent myself to the ER in anticipation, but that’s neither here nor there LOL. I have to laugh about it because my life is a constant exercise in fuckery LOL. I’d be in an institution if I took it too seriously.

So people, don’t take everything so personal. When someone does something that in some way affects you, you cant always see it like they are doing it TO you. People are who they are and when the shenanigans unleash, sometimes you are just the one who happens to be in the line of fire. It wont change your life in the long run, so don’t let it change you in the short term either. Just keep your heart light and know that having a sense of humor is necessary because the universe surely got jokes LOL.

BTW, Ive gotten the emails. Im not ignoring them, Ive just been distracted with other things this past week. I’ll get around to them, I promise.

Hope yall had a good weekend. Im gonna go see what the cosmos have for me today. SMH.