And in this corner.....

I knew I forgot something.

So I told yall I really aint feelin my manager like that. Its become clear over the last day or two that I am not the only one.

There is one chick on our team who seems to be really cool with her. She is the only one she really speaks socially with. I thought the whole team seemed to have a positive relationship with her, but over the last couple of days, I am starting to see that there is a little bit of underlying "bitch, bye!" in the building LOL.

She was out on Friday. I think that played a huge part in the pleasantness of the atmosphere. We laughed, had a good ole time, but we also got work done. At one point, one of the guys asked me what I thought about the job so far. I told him I dug it but that I get frustrated with the contradictions. Several people have done trainings for me and the other couple of new folks, but every time, my manager contradicts what we were told, so its like.... do I do it like so-and-so told me to do it or do I listen to my manager? Everyone nodded and kinda fell silent - you know that pregnant pause that tells you the next words need to be carefully phrased LOL. They all pretty much said to listen to my manager. She has been successful, but it sounded more like they were saying to do it for my own good. I only picked that up because earlier this week we bumped heads a little bit and she went and told the HR lady who hired me, which led to the HR lady puling me into a conference room to see "what was wrong." I gotta say I was tight that she felt like she needed to go to her about such a small thing as it was, but I let it go and took it as a footnote. Clearly this is gonna be one of those smile-and-nod situations, at least for a while. Whether I agree or not, just say "ok" and keep it moving. I think the rest of the team is on the same wavelength. They said everyone has their own style but until I learn the lay, just do it how she wants me to do it so there aint no problems. Cool.

So the other day I said there is one chick on my team I dont really fuck with right? Well when you are new on the job and still learning how to counter certain objections, anytime you get a fish on the hook, your manager or another senior member of the team jumps on the back end of your call and cues you responses. This chick and I are on the same project, so she jumped on my call Friday and led me through it. As much as she was giving me props, she was also feeling herself a little bit, muttering little stuff under her breath about being the shit and what not LOL and commenting about how she had her own team before and how they were always #1. I thought it was funny how agitated she seemed but didnt quite put two and two together yet. Then she was like "wait, I led you through the call you had the other day too, right? Both calls?" I said yes and she went back to popping her collar. Then I thought about the call earlier in the week; she was leading me and my manager cut in and took over, I guess not feeling like she was telling me right, or at least not saying what SHE would say. Girlfriend told me later that when she is leading me, just disregard the pitch I was given because hers and my manager's are totally different. She must have felt some kinda way about being bumped and that's where all this was coming from.

So like I said, everybody went to the bar - everybody except this girl, who stayed behind to construct "the perfect email" to send to the guy I spoke to, despite my insistence that I could do it myself. She insisted her emails "are the shit" so I was like whatever, knock yourself out LOL. Her boyfriend came over to see if she was going to the bar and she said she would come in a little while but for him to take me over there with him. So he and I went to the bar, getting to know each other along the way, and we started talking about the team. He made some comment that prompted me to say that girlfriend and the manager seem to bump heads. He said "Megan bumps heads with a lot of people" LOL. Then he went on to tell me that she used to be the equivalent of my manager's manager over in Asia and previously had had her own team for a couple of years, but when she came back to the US, she was made to start over. Now I dont know if she had left the company and came back in or if that's just protocol - I didnt ask - but it suddenly became real clear what was going on.

Both this chick and my manager have exactly the same cocky personality and neither likes to be questioned or challenged. That's how me and the manager bumped heads that day (I might be new HERE, but I'm seasoned too, bitch LOL) and its the reason those two are oil and water. Girlfriend doesnt respect the manager's flow and the manager knows it, which is why very few words pass between them. I guess my manager is like do whatever you wanna do but this is MY new team member and you will not step on my toes. Its gonna be interesting to see how she reacts tomorrow when she finds out Megan played a role in my deal, because I imagine Megan is gonna be pushing the passive-aggressive button like she's stuck in an elevator LOL. I imagine she's gonna ask me to forward her the email Megan sent for me and whip out her red pen, crossing out shit she'd never have said, for future reference, and I'll become the rag doll torn between two selfish little kids who dont wanna play with each other anymore.

Man, I aint even here for that LOL. But still, it'll be interesting.