Im Not Gon Be Able to Do It

So Im sitting on my bed right now, throwing one back and toking (dont fucken judge me, bitch LOL) because I decided to start my weekend early. Roundabout 10:47 this morning, I looked up at my computer screen and said nope..... Im not gon be able to do it.

I got SO much shit swirling through my mind today, I couldnt concentrate. It has been a very trying week as it is, and every 15 minutes, there was some other bullshit on my doorstep to walk away from today. I felt like I was gonna have a meltdown.

So you wanna have an attitude cause you dont wanna be at work today, and get all snippy with me cause Im asking you questions about something you get paid to do? Nope. Im not gon be able to do it.

You want me to do my expenses in a timely fashion, but you dont wanna pay them in a timely fashion, resulting in a late fee that I gotta pay outta MY pocket? Eh-eh. Im not gon be able to do it.

You wanna fall off the face of the earth, explain the bullshit behind it AS bullshit and in the same breath defend it? Nope. Not gon do it.

Ok so I fail this class on some bullshit policy that makes absolutely no sense, and my aid will pay for me to take it again but the money they still owe me that I was supposed to have coming to me next month is now not coming until May? What? Not. Doing it.

You wanna be failing math cause you too busy playing your PS3 to study for the tests, and then be mad at me when I tell you you cant go to the dance at school? Oh HELL no. "Every little step you take gon be around this damn house tonight!" LOL I aint doin it.

I just aint gon damn do it.

You wanna tough it out when life is fuckin wit you, but sometimes you just gotta say fuck it and throw in the towel. Getting through today at the office was lookin like too much work. I needed a time out - a RESET, with nobody calling my name for anything, nobody asking me stupid ass queestions or lookin in my face to do something I aint feel like damn doing, so I cashed in some sick hours and brought my ass home. Yes, dammit, Im sick LOL. You got your definition, I got mine.

I have some shit to work out this weekend - a lotta shit actually - but I am committed to sweeping all this negativity under the rug and starting fresh come Monday. Not just with work, but everything else too. Life has become entirely too much to handle in entirely too short a time and I just aint gon be able to do it. I aint. I cant. I fucken refuse. So for the next four hours, I am turning the world OFF. *click*

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*pops in Roots*

Oh..... and RIP Etta James. At least now Bey can stop sleeping with one eye open LOL.....

(That was wrong. But, fuck it....)