Remembering 9/11

I totally lost my shit this morning.

I come through World Trade every day and never really stop to think. It’s partly intentional.

I didn’t even realize today was the anniversary of 9/11 until I got off the train and saw the usual unnecessary number of police and military had almost tripled and there were news crews everywhere. The 9/11 memorial ceremony. I got to the corner, where the traffic guards were pulling the chain to stop foot traffic from crossing and instinctively, I turned around and looked at the Freedom Tower, not yet finished. My eyes drifted automatically to the space around it….. the fenced-in blankness below it….. and I lost it. I didn’t meant to. But I did. Just for a moment.

The traffic guards held us just long enough for me to get my life together, and by the time we were allowed to cross the street, I was okay again. Half a block up, while I was trying not to stare at this FINE secret service agent outside one of the barricades (LOL) I passed Rudy Giuliani. I had never seen him in person and he was literally an arm’s length away from me. It made me smile in really random fashion.

Tomorrow things will go back to normal and I will once again walk through World Trade not acknowldeging the ghosts of a time passed. But today.... I remember.