Relax, Relate, Release

Today was an amazing day. I didnt like... find a wallet or nothing LOL, but I just felt amazing all day. It might be because I finally pulled my Ipod out and listened to, and remembered just how awesome the music on it is. I gotta remember to shoot a note to my boy, Courtney, for hooking that up.

Im finally feeling like Im beginning to settle in at the job, making small footprints, here and there, confirming for the powers that be that the decision to bring me on was a good one. The commute is finally becoming doable without an oxygen treatment, I finally figured out how to open the downstairs door without getting closed in it LOL, and Maxwell reminded me today that the best way for a man to say he loves me is to put on Whenever, Wherever, Whatever, hold my hand and stare the words into my eyes, without saying a thing. Im gon marry that man... maybe LOL.

Im about to spend a grip on a trip home to see my kids tomorrow, but I guess thats how it goes when you buy a ticket the same day. Sure there are cheaper ways than flying, but Im going after work and dont wanna spend all night tryna get there, when (weather permitting and we actually get to leave) I can be there in 45 minutes. Besides, I have a date with a whirlpool and my girls to look forward to when I get there - who wants to wait another day for that?

Im looking into other arrangements for the midgets too. Their paternal grandmother said she is willing to have them come stay with her if things arent working out at my mom's - which they arent, for at least one of my kids - so Im gonna talk to them this weekend, and then go talk to her to see what we have to do. If we make that happen, I can carry on with my original plan of having them stay upstate until Christmas, while I get settled down here, and I can start to enjoy the experience of starting over, without having such clutter in my spirit. Paternal grandmother is a whole nother beast than my mom. Some might wonder why I didnt ask her in the first place. Well... there have been other girlfriends and babies since my time on the mound, so our relationship isnt what it use to be. Loyalties and such - a business she never should have gotten into, but I digress. Water under the bridge though now; time to move forward. Everybody's gotta put on their big girl pants.

I think I will have enough to get a place by the 15th. Im hoping so. Im getting tired of looking at all my shit in bags and bins in a corner of the room, and even more tired of digging through them shits every day. Truth be told though, Im not gonna be here much over the next couple of weeks. The job's got me flying to DC the same day I get back from upstate and I'll be there most of the week. The following week, its the same deal - four days out of pocket. Then when I get back, hopefully, I will be on my way into my new digs. I started looking again today. There is some potential.

So things are starting to look up - at least I hope so - and Im ready for better news. Tonight, Im gonna pack a light bag so I can leave right from work tomorrow, then pour me a glass of something sharp, letting my Ipod take the place of channel 843 while Im still in transition. Better get my vitamins together. Judging from my schedule, Im definitely gonna need em....