Moving Madness

This move. Im frustrated, more than anything. I have two weeks to go and will just now be starting to really pack things up today. Im a procrastinator, to the core, but even more than that, it seemed like I had more time. You just dont realize how much shit you have until its time to put it all in a box. Then I find out, when I called to reserve a rental, that nobody likes to do one way rentals anymore. The folks that will do it, make you reserve the expensive ass luxury models that most people dont need, all because youre going to leave it in another city. What the hell do I need with a Jag, just to throw a buncha shit in the trunk? My only other option would be to rent a regular car, keep it for a damn week, drive it back here the following weekend and then fly back down to NY. Either way, a bigger expense than I anticipated, and I need to figure out which road to take TODAY, in order to ensure that something is available for me. *sigh*

Then you got people. People I have not heard from in forever, catch wind of me leaving and suddenly feel some pressing need to spend time with me before I go. My "twin" jokes about it on the regular - me being able to call all kinda shots now LOL, but one person in particular, who made this request a couple of days ago, actually kinda pissed me off with it. I havent heard a peep from this dude in a year, almost to the day. And it wasnt for lack of trying, he just wasnt being responsive. But now, outta nowhere, he's all "oh we gotta kick it before you leave." Really? Your birthday must be rolling around again. *checks calendar* Yup. Well I hope you sipped slow on that bottle of 1738 I bought you last year, cause you wont be getting another one LOL.

On the flip side, people Im closer to - those I thought I'd be seeing more of, or at least hear more from, with me moving away - are scarce. Im really kinda thrown at the tremendous lack of interest some have shown in where Im even going, what Im gonna be doing at the new gig, what my plan is, how the moving arrangements/packing is going, or anything else past what I have OFFERED to tell them. Some, I know, have taken on endeavors recently that have rendered them busy. Others... not so much. Just not around, or making hollow plans, not following through. Im not gonna call or text you, asking what happened, and Im not gonna bring it up in those random IM's when you're carrying on, business as usual, like you didnt jap out on something YOU planned. I'll simply pack my shit up and leave you here with everybody else. For me, THAT is business as usual. I have neither the time, patience, nor the desire to deal with your bullshit. But I bet you'll show up to the going away outing, fronting like youre gonna miss me so much. Oh yeah? Go ahead and start missing me now. Im over it.

I dont think one person has offered to help me pack either. Thats all good though - Im used to having to do things myself - its just an observation. A couple friends did offer their spare space for me to avoid paying for storage, so thats at least one less thing to worry about, but silver linings are few and far between right now. I'll start today, like I mentioned, and hopefully see enough progress to make me optimistic about having it all done in the next two weeks. I dont have to be out of the house until the end of the month, so worse case scenario, I come back the following weekend - as Enterprise so thoughtfully suggests (*RME*)- and finish up.

And dont even get me started on my mama. *SMH*

Im supposed to be working until Friday, but Im not sure Im gonna make it that long. Yesterday, it took everything in me not to curse this woman at my job from rooter to tooter. She's one of the ones with a permanent attitude that I talked about before. You know the type - the situation is already resolved, finalized by your last decisive response to her stupid ass inquiries about something, but she still wanna come back and assert her position, because feeling like she's right about whatever it was would just be the high point of her day. Well, let me tell yall this, and I mean it from the bottom of my heart: she got one mo' time - ONE mo' time - and Im gonna forego the rest of the time I have there, let her ass have it, and walk my OWN self out. (<-- see how there's no "LOL" there? LOL)

*sigh*

Ok, I guess I oughta finish my coffee and get my mind right so I can get started. I've had some other things on my mind lately, so I might be back later, but until then, yall be easy and enjoy this holiday weekend.