Over the weekend I thought about a conversation I had with a friend of mine a while back where I was explaining to her why I was no longer friends with this guy I used to be really close with. She's like "Oh, okay, because he threw you under the bus." I said "No, because he LIED." What's more, he didn't have to. The truth woulda gotten him out of the situation he had found himself in, but he went past what was true and just started freestyling like it was gonna get him some extra lives or something. The sucker shit was that the person he was giving it up to was manipulating him into going too far, I believe for the sole purpose of being able to come back and tell me what was said so that I would stop being friends with him. And that's exactly what happened.
Here's the thing: if you ever find yourself under extreme duress and the only thing that's gonna save your life is to break my confidence, do that shit. Gun to your head, give it up. Say what I said. Tell what I did. I'm not a person who does fucked up shit to people or who says anything behind people's backs that I wouldn't say to their faces, but even on the off chance that I did, I'm going to own it. I promise I won't be mad about it, but TELL👏🏾THE👏🏾TRUTH.👏🏾
Then the MF didn't even have the balls to tell me he said the shit he said, I had to ask him about it. Here I am thinking the situation got worked out, an understanding was reached - whatever. Everybody's moving on. Y'all, when I got the update, it was so crazy to me that at first I didn't even believe it was true. I thought I was being manipulated at that point, because I just knew MY FRIEND wouldn't do all that. But I wound up asking him and much to my surprise, he admitted it. I tried to see things from his perspective and be understanding of how people don't always do the right thing when their backs are up against the wall. I forgave him in that moment and respected the fact that he copped to it, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that he never would have told me had I never asked, and that just didn't sit right with me. Not to mention, as a Capricorn, I have a very big problem with people doing shit to me that I'd never have done to them. We don't let everyone in, so all breeches are fucken federal.
Our regular communication took a hit immediately, but we did carry on the small shit, like birthday and holiday wishes for several more years until one year his birthday rolled around and I was like "fuck him" LOL. I think that tripped a wire in me, because from that point on, I stopped giving MF's grace who thought they could play with me. Being understanding is overrated, and honestly, most people don't deserve the benefit of the doubt. The lie is obvious. The disrespect is blatant. The craziest part is that all of the people I've cut off since then have been people I NEVER thought I'd be doing life without, but the shit end of the stick? Them having to do life without me. 💪🏾✌🏾
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